drop me off to the fairyland

so.... it has been a long while since I post anything here.

i don't know.... my life has been so busy I just don't have the energy writing up anything when I get home late at night

a couple weeks ago I went back to my old blog @ youthwant and read them all over again

I was amazed at my great chinese writing lol

and realising it is really great recording something in my life because I honestly won't remember in the next month

Anyway, work has been extremely busy these weeks while reaching some sort of stress peak this week. I have been doing alot of thinking and I wonder if it is because my personality or am I really not able to be better organised with my workload.

I was so stressed early this week I couldn't eat and couldn't sleep properly... sometimes I even thought I was about to have an anxiety attack. Of course I learnt to keep my mouth shut in the office, I mean this is not an easy topic to speak to anyone about. And honestly I am not sure if anyone can really understand how I feel. Not that they are expected to.

There was even a point that I wonder why am I doing all these and getting all stressed for? I can just quit and do my share trading earning a bit on the side, further my studies while work on a carefree job.... one job that i would not care more than my personal life. Just a stress free job and get paid on time. I don't know what I am holding on right now.

Enough of the rant, daddy is back to Ozland and I have hardly seen him. Tonight I managed to arrive home before he gone back to his bedroom however not much conversation was exchanged. Perhaps I was/am feeling a bit down also. I somehow ended up wondering in NAP and bought the below which is an absolute bargin as these are going for over 700 in Australia. What happens to the beautiful patent black Chanel glasses with pearls on the side then...?

I was also eyeing this beautiful crystal beads necklance but after all ACB sounds like a new brand from US and I guess i can get something similar here so I past it on.

The urge of shopping kinda of haunt me all night tonight for some unknown reason. I should really get off my laptop before doing anymore damage.... Having said that I bought a lovely tibi dress a while ago but ended up return it as it was too big for me. However now i look at the photo i thought it might be okie. the 60s necklane is just so cute. oh well.